HAVE IT OPEN. THE NEWS. THE LIGHT.
THE MEAT INSIDE MY SKULL.
I AM THE BACKWARD SKY. MY EYES ARE
MOUNTAINS THAT RIVERS MAY FLOW FROM.
Everyone I've loved in every life. Our bodies change
but the space between us is kept. The world is nurturing
to whatever our souls ask it for. I want to play.
Must I be miserable first?
Hesitation is in a relaxing beat.
I do not want to go back to sleep.
But I do want the heat, I do.
I have that heavy feeling in my energy. I am literally
waiting to find out. This is a pattern though it has evolved
so much it's frightening to feel it again. I will not let it linger
passed digestion. I will communicate what I understand
because I've rested with it. I do not want to express
what I have not swam through. I let myself be
vulnerable. I'll let myself do it again.
There may be pain.
There may be joy.
These are the things the day brings anyway.
And I write this down to GET IT OUT OF MY PERSON.
I do not want loneliness in my muscle memory. I do not
want resentment or words I wish I would have said stuck
anywhere inside of me.
