Loop

desolate playground for the suncoming
it's still so cold, I'm still so vulnerable 
I'll be here for a while but I've come 
unprepared

And, conquer.

crushing rooftops of my scope 
I see stars through the clouds I know 
where I am. 

mystical fucking playground. 

skyscraping  while my feet 
are literally getting wet

I am in appreciation
I am fully immersed behind the eyes
that came with my person. 

my slippers will dry. 

And, 
lightning bolt terror.
I know you've been watching. 
I know you've been catching 
my intensity.

Scorpion playplace. 

the fairgrounds are haunted
the rooms after every back door
have frightening secrets itching 
to be let out. 

everything jitters. 

crabrabbit me down to a hole
of shelter of warmth and comfort 

and the branches of the trees 
grow to infinity and puncture 
our still-breathing hearts 

still-breathing mind.

who cares if its still breathing? 

desolation playground for the grand sum
I'm only out here to breath. 

endblues enlightenment II

Revelations of life are now revelations of the living
what I've learned from Truth and Beauty I've since
taken from dirty shoes and broken street lamps.

I've wept with the sky
because it felt insane otherwise. And
the junkies and and the messes in our hearts
and the food fermenting in our guts feasting
tiny creatures and the warmth of another
body lying close,
breathing.

Gracefully, like a lover, the city rejects starlight.

I worship the spectrum
listening to the beat of human herds
listening to so many unspoken relations
between legs and whoever
they walked after.

I feel in these words, may I share
my innermost creativity with you?

first Listen,
first remove my psychological clothing.

I did. I cried when I first understood that I
could never be naked. I wept with Mother
and cried by myself.

In a perfect city there is Luna at our fingertips.
A massive brick-of-Nature trampling over
in reflection beyond and then through bricks.

beyond and then through.

that's what you're doing to me.

In my bloodclot species
there are so many things of blood
filling up existence and so many
who easily clump themselves together.

It's the elements,
they move with and within and Because Of always

And all my love is water.

And all love is endblues enlightenment.

These elements that are moving to make us move
the musicians themselves of the Tangible Universe
to keep this mother-nature groove going.

These elements that are colours sweeping
and textures colliding and creating forms
and remineralizing a painterly canvas for life.

And these massive, over-hanging lids that bathe
my eyes in shining
shining
shining.

Why are we all scared of raw behaviour?

I feel in these words to keep
my Self calm out there.

A new truth of the Universe, a revelation.

That's what I'm really in it for though truth
is found through pain because happiness
consumes ALL RECEPTOR POINTS.

Endorphins.

And without Euphoria in Eutopia there are
the deepest holes of instinct and origin.

there are voids into the subatomic soul

the lost; the wilderness of heart

the bitterglory. the soulnectar of knowing loss.
the fantasy moment of rest if you've actually
gotten off. THE NERVOUS TICK WHEN
SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS

that tick,
tick
tick

makes me wanna dance.




In practice

Still life in practice. Still life in the pursuit of my intentions.

My gut lives in my mind, too.

Irrrelivent things of meaning and attuning
To souls who held me at strange yesterday.

I'm reviving the ancient goal. The characters have invested.

I sleep naked anyway.
I think of leaving town
and wonder if I'd be able to wear
a cap of fire elsewhere.

I'll wear all this fire here if that's alright.

I can only look at myself with black hair.

I can only think of myself under rays of silver light.

I've come back for fire.

In my womanly body of memory I was thrown over to rest
in the waters and I haunted those seas until 1988.

Watching sailors sin.

Showing my face to only the ones moments away from death.

Come,
be with me.

Still life.
Stimulants.

Flesh. Coffee. Cigarettes.

Detox moment.

Everything.

Let myself surface.

It's raining.

Washed away.